What Lies Ahead

Life's decisions are never easy...

As most of you know I had plans to return to Russia in August, and still hope that those plans will happen, but I only have about 17% of the amount of money I need raised. I have gotten really discouraged lately as people continue to tell me no, they can't support me. I am starting to question whether or not this really is what God has called me to do next year. I have really felt like this was his calling, yet I am far from having the money I need to go. On top of that, the rest of my team is struggling for funds, and our entire team could be forced to stay back if not enough of us get our support raised.
I have also recently found a great new group of friends that I would like to get to know better. I am finding a reason to stay in the US, and finding myself wanting to stay here a little bit longer.
But I am struggling to figure out what I would do if I do not go. I need a job, and I really don't want to live with my parents any longer than I have too. So I really don't know what to do. I will know for sure whether or not I am going in just a few weeks. But if you are reading this, please be praying for direction in my life, and that God would remove my desires and reveal himself to me.