Life's decisions are never easy...
As most of you know I had plans to return to Russia in August, and still hope that those plans will happen, but I only have about 17% of the amount of money I need raised. I have gotten really discouraged lately as people continue to tell me no, they can't support me. I am starting to question whether or not this really is what God has called me to do next year. I have really felt like this was his calling, yet I am far from having the money I need to go. On top of that, the rest of my team is struggling for funds, and our entire team could be forced to stay back if not enough of us get our support raised.
I have also recently found a great new group of friends that I would like to get to know better. I am finding a reason to stay in the US, and finding myself wanting to stay here a little bit longer.
But I am struggling to figure out what I would do if I do not go. I need a job, and I really don't want to live with my parents any longer than I have too. So I really don't know what to do. I will know for sure whether or not I am going in just a few weeks. But if you are reading this, please be praying for direction in my life, and that God would remove my desires and reveal himself to me.
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I definitely can't tell you exactly what the Lord wants, but I do want to offer some encouragement. So, be encouraged. ;-) Don't let Satan steal your assurance and purpose just because you're facing some difficulties. Remember the vision the Lord has given you for the people of Russia and your heart for that part of the world. Everyone's money is really a gift the Lord has given to them and I pray those you ask for support will realize that blessing and be eager to give back to Him by supporting your ministry! Keep making phone calls and try to keep the perspective that the Lord has called you to something greater and laid it on your heart to be part of fulfilling the Great Commission in Russia. I'm praying for you!!!
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying. God has a great plan for your life.
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